well, i got hooked on reading other people's blogs, so i thought i might give it a try myself. i have a journal at home that i just don't seem to have the time to write in anymore, so this may take the place of that. at the very least, this will keep me from obsessively reading other people's blogs, at least I hope it will. or maybe it will help me keep my life more interesting? who knows....
thought originally that i would start off with a little background info. wrote a bit out. then decided i wanted to start fresh. no rehashing too much old news.
last night was fun. went out with a friend from work. he was an indian food virgin. he absolutely loved it. which is wonderful. got into a long political discussion. had no idea he was so conservative. it was like talking politics with my dad again. me the liberal defending my views, with him extolling the virtues of the bush administration. i really thought he was a liberal like me. you would think so. he's got his nipples pierced and everything. but no. loved the discourse though. back and forth. have missed having a conservative to talk with about politics. haven't had one since my dad died suddenly in may. c was a blast to talk to. he is fickle though. jumps in and out of my life like a someone doing the hokey pokey. i wish he wasn't that way.
we did have some good talks last night. i found out finally why he had disappeared back in december. AND i found out that i have hurt his feelings in the past. this is a man who i have seen show very little emotion. would not tell me what i had done, just that there had been things i have said that really hit him. why do people do that? just so you can wonder exactly what it is you did for hours on end? just so you can wonder what an ass you can be?? i finally fessed up to the fact that him up and disappearing hurt my feelings. he apologized. i know he will do it again. it's in his nature. he runs when he starts to feel close to someone. afraid of attachment. afraid of being hurt again. his ex really did a job on him.